Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Year-End Survey

1. What is your favorite website, and why?

-Pandora. I absolutely love music. All kinds of music. Every day. All day. And of all genres. I can go from Florence + The Machine to VNV Nation to John Williams all in one day. This site makes me happy <3

2. What is your biggest fear, and why?

-The death of a loved one or being alone in life. Why? Because I've lost enough people in my life and am not sure how much heartache one can have in that department.

3. What is your new most favorite drink?

-Granville Island Brewing's Lions Winter Ale . Unfortunately, it's not sold in the states :(

4. What is your favorite newly discovered food?

-There's a Thai place Chase and I recently discovered by our apartment that has this amazing Tom Kha Taohu soup. It's tofu and vegetables in a coconut broth - absurdly delicious.

5. What are you doing for the holidays?

-Christmas Eve I will be baking cupcakes and perhaps some sugar cookies and tiramasu. Then Christmas I'm going to celebrate with Chase, his momma, little brother, older brother, and his girlfriend up in Big Bear. I'm dreaming of a white Christmas <3

6. What have you learned in the last year that you can share?

-I've learned that I abhor mathematics on every level possible. It makes me feel physically and emotionally sick. What a life drainer for this non-numerical girl.

-I've learned that life is nothing I thought it would be...and I'm okay with that. As hard as it all is, I'm feeling more like I see a purpose ahead of me. I've not had that in the past.

7. What are you currently studying or learning about?

-In school I just finished all of my general education classes and will now begin my major classes in Business. I learned more algebra than I hope I ever need to know in life. And learned that I love having a creative outlet in my writing.

-At work, I've been learning more about the products we use in the technologically advanced field of home integration systems. It's a fun learning experience.

-I've also been researching more into how to get the business I work for into volunteering opportunities in the community. This can then lead to the corporate office giving grants and/or scholarships to those who need it. Specifically, I'm interested in an organization I've volunteered a lot at in the past and really hoping to get people interested.

8. What goal, if any, have you reached this year?

-My only real goal this year was to stick to my classes and get straight A's...which has been officially accomplished!

9. Name one or two dreams you have for the next few years?
-I'd like to have my associates degree in business management by this time next year. I still need to meet with a counselor to see if it's feasible, but I believe it will be if I can do it financially.

-Another dream is to get more financially stable. This stems off from getting my associates to hopefully advance me in a career and helping me earn more money.

10. Have you done anything this year that is exciting?

-I visited Canada for the first time! It was so beautiful, even with the non-stop rain.

11. Now let’s really dream: describe your dream home.

-I'd love a mix of cozy and cute, but also techy with cool gadgets and games. A library with a comfortable reading chair would be ideal. Even better if it was a loft with a nice sun window. A kitchen meant for a baker. A fireplace. A wraparound porch with a swing. A laundry room. A game room complete with a pool table, theater system, pc gaming area...

12. What’s the latest goofiest thing you’ve done?

-I was singing Christmas carols while shopping at Target today during lunch. In my defense, I didn't realize I was doing it until a lady smiled at me and said I had a sweet voice. LoL.

13. What’s the most embarrassing thing you’ve done lately?

-See the answer to number 12.

14. Name something that happened in 2011, doesn’t have to be a personal event (could be a world event) that really affected you in some way.

-The 9.1 earthquake and subsequent tsunami that tore apart Japan this past year. Natural disasters are a given every year, but this one had me really scared. It completely shifted the plates below us and I now see earthquakes popping up in areas they've not usually occurred before. Also, a lot of manufacturing companies for large corporations were destroyed or temporarily shut down which had an affect on prices of certain items here in America.

15. Name whatever song is on your mind right now, and why you love it so!

-"Nova" by VNV Nation. This song is breathtakinly beautiful. I recommend listening to it if you haven't. I think my love for this song stemmed from hearing it sung live...it completely transformed the audience. It gave me goosebumps. I had Chase's arms wrapped around me and we swayed back and forth while singing along. It was such an amazing experience. One I will never forget.

16. Best movie you’ve seen lately?

-I recently rented the original Girl With The Dragon Tattoo movie and wow. It held very true to the book and the actors were perfectly casted. I'm interested to see how the Americanized version of the film will play out. I know it's got a lot of hype behind it, but I'd be surprised if it came close to the foreign version.

17. Best t.v. show you’ve seen lately?

-My recent favorites are New Girl and Whitney. I love their quirky personalities and the story line.

18. What do you want to be doing right now instead of sitting at the computer?

-I'd rather be up in the mountains snowboarding.

19. Best place you’ve been lately (could be local)?

-Vancouver, Canada. It rained the whole time, yet took my breath away. The architecture in the downtown district was so different. I wish I had more pictures from the trip.

20. What do you look forward to in the next year?

-Finishing school, growing as a person, seeing where life takes me...

21. Brag time. That’s right. Brag about something, or things, you’ve accomplished that nobody else knows about.

-I won awards in high school for speech and debate and creative writing. I also won an award from my writing class last semester for a unanimous vote for my final piece being the class favorite. The professor asked that I look into the book the school publishes every year of writing pieces.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Thankful: Two

Well, I've already failed at keeping my thanks continuous, but here goes...

Today, I am thankful for the gift of sound. I find so much beauty in the sounds surrounding me. Not just music, but the sound of someones voice, laughter, and nature. I had some song lyrics stuck in my head today, and decided to listen to it on YouTube:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bjjc59FgUpg&ob=av2n

One of the comments for this video said to go to www.rainymood.com and play it softly in the background.

And wow, maybe I'm overly emotional today, but it brought tears to my eyes. The song itself is gorgeous, but something about the sound of nature in the background...it just hit me. Overwhelming euphoria for the world we live in. Yes, there are bad times, but there are wonderful times as well. And I'm trying really hard to focus on the good times instead of dwelling on the bad.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Thankful: One

Last year I attempted to write one thing I was thankful for every day in the month of November. I failed. This month, I will try again. I know this is a little late into the month, but it's never too late to give thanks where it's due :)

Today, I am thankful for my cats. Every morning I am woken up with the incessant meowing from Timone and Luna. And while it does drive me nuts, it also makes me feel wanted and warms my heart. My morning routine is filled with kitty obstacles as they weave in and out of my legs. Luna, the little fur face that she is, even tries to climb up my body on mornings when she is feeling especially needy. I can relate. If I was a little kitty, I would definitely climb up people. It's endearing, right?

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Exerpt from my writing class...

Looking down at the crowd below, I realized what a fool I'd been to get myself into this situation. My name's Sophie, but people call me So So. It's a nickname my brother gave me when I was younger for my apathetic behavior. I was never happy, never sad...just "so-so" as he said. It caught on and has stuck since. I'm standing at the top of Tykermon's bridge debating my next step as I look at the crowd forming 100 feet down. I'm 36 years old and feel no younger than 50. Funny how six months can make such a drastic change in one's life. Just three months ago, I found out I was pregnant. This was something my husband and I had been trying to accomplish for two years, and it finally happened. I drove to his work with the pregnancy test in hand ready to celebrate. I walked in on he and his secretary. I filed for a divorce the next day.
I'm running through my memory book of thoughts as camera flashes click up at me. Click-I remember when I first met my husband. That gaze across a bar that held just a little longer than most. His pompous stride crossing the room where his eyes never left mine. It wasn't love at first sight, not the slightest. It was all lust. But what we thought was a fling ended up turning into so much more. We had chemistry, a spark that never did die out. Click-Our wedding day. We had gardenias and tiki torches for decoration along a small patch of the beach. Our guests gathered standing. It was a short ceremony with a lot of dancing afterward. The perfect wedding. Click-The first night in our apartment. It was small, but cozy. We had no furniture, so we set a tent up in the living room and camped. We ended up making s'mores on the stove top and telling ghost stories with a flashlight to our faces. The night ended in shadow puppets and sex. Click-Me walking in on my husband with her. So what happened? When did I stop being enough for him? And why now? Why, when we were so close to completing our family?
This morning I awoke to blood surrounding me. I had miscarried. I knew this was a possibility. My doctor had warned me, but I never thought it would happen to me. No one ever thinks it will be them, and then they become the statistic. Another number added to the poll. What was there to live for now?
All around me I listen to the faint sounds of sirens and the talking below me that sound like echoed whispers. I'm not sure what to do at this point. I am becoming nothing. A void is filling me, consuming me whole. What used to fill me, a living being, has left me empty.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Parfait!

Are most of your friends in your life new or old?
Old.

Do you eat raw cookie dough?
Yes. I love it so so so so much. It's a passion/hobby of mine.

How do you like your eggs?
Sunny side up with pepper and Cholula if I'm feeling spicy.

Creamy or crunchy peanut butter?
Creamy.

Instant or home-made mashed potatoes?
This is a horrible question. Have you ever tasted instant? They taste like cardboard. Definitely home-made.

Can you handle the truth?
Tell me how you really feel.

What is the compliment you get from most people?
Usually on my eyes or hair. Or that I'm cute. I feel like a little kid.

If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself?
Sure would.

Is anyone on your bad side right now?
Nope!

What’s the best drinking game?
King's Cup.

Do you like your music loud or soft?
Has to be loud.

Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them?
I actually just cleaned out my closet and threw away the pairs that had the rips and tears. They weren't bought that way, just years of abuse.

When was the last time you fell over or ran into something?
I fell over this morning while putting some soda in the fridge. My skirt got caught in the back of my heels when I was kneeling. I tried to get up and got caught, then fell to the ground. I'm super graceful. I should teach a class.

What’s the first movie that gave you nightmares?
I don't recall.

If you could sleep with one famous person, who would it be?
David Duchovney. Duh.

Have you ever sung in front of the mirror?
I have, but normally sing in the shower.

Do you talk a lot?
Normally, no. Just depends on my mood and who I'm with. If I'm with Kate...it's non stop talkfestathon2000.

Do you make up your own words?
Oh, yes. Currently I add "thirty" to words. Like, beerthirty and carthirty.

What is something you say a lot?
I know, right? That's what she said. Awesome. Amazing. Fantabulous.

What was the last movie you saw in theaters?
Captain America and Cowboys vs. Aliens - a movie hop evening.

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it?
That's like Alice going down the rabbit hole. Won't go into it.

Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
With someone else.

Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with?
No way.

Do you stay friends with your ex's?
I am with one ex. He's a great friend.


What attracted you to your most recent guy/girl?
I always thought he was cute. But also his mystery.

Are you/have you been in love?
I am, yes.

Would you wear a boyfriend/girlfriends clothes?
I do all the time.

What do you find romantic?
Unexpected kisses and sweet comments. The little things.

Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or just diving in?
Prefer knowing.

Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out?
Since when is it not socially acceptable? Ha.

Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever?
I definitely do.

What is your 'perfect kiss'?
The unexpected ones. And the ones that have a lot of anticipation beforehand. The ones that make you feel like you're the only two people in the world.

The one thing I love about the opposite sex is:
Their smell, hands and arms.

What is the most difficult thing for you to do?
To not over analyze.

What's the best sound in the world?
The sound of waves at night. Oh how I miss falling asleep to them.

Is education important?

Definitely, but I don't believe that our education system is necessarily correct. And they sure don't make it easy for people to go to school after high school if you can't afford it.

Rather live in the country or in a city?
Country.

Favorite song you can listen to over and over?
Currently, it's a Placebo song, Running Up That Hill.

Craziest night?
I've had those, yes.

Do you believe punishment really makes a person better?
Ha, no.

Should people that hurt animals have the same done to them?
Yes. People who abuse animals make me sick.

Ever been to a party that cops busted?
Yes, a couple in the past.

You addicted to anything?
Sleep, baths, WoW, iced coffee...

How much does it cost for you to fill up your gas tank?
Around $45. Rude.

Ever ran over an animal?
Road kill, yes. But not anything live.

Favorite type of movie to watch?
Depends on my mood. Lately, it's been action.

Ever seen a weird bug and you didn't know what it was?
Yes, my first encounter with a house centipede. Barf.

What do you order at McDonald's?
The fruit n yogurt parfait. And when they are in season, the Asian Chicken Salad - love it!

Monday, August 22, 2011

I do what I want!

What time are you starting this?
11:19 am

Name?
Kristal

Nicknames?
Adorkable, Kris, Krissy

Date of birth?
September 8, 1985

Sex?
Female

Height?
5'5

Eye color?
Dark Brown

Where were you born?
Crawfordsville, IN

Number of candles on your last birthday cake?
25

Pets?
Timone and Luna

Hair color?
Currently, brown with some red hint

Piercings?
Ears

Town you live in?
Orange

Favorite foods?
Sushi, macaroni and cheese, mashed potatoes with gravy, Mexican, Chinese

Ever been to Africa?
Nope! But, God bless the rain down in Aaaaafricaaaaa...

Been toilet papering?
Nope.

Love someone so much it made you cry?
Yes.

Been in a car accident?
Yes, but none major.

Croutons or bacon bits?
Can't I have both? Please?

Favorite day of the week?
Saturday...the one day I get to stay up late and attempt to sleep in the next morning.

Favorite restaurant?
Ten Sushi

Favorite flower?
Sunflower

Favorite sport to watch?
Football

Favorite drink?
Water or sweet tea

Favorite ice cream flavor?
Breyers chocolate chip cookie dough

Warner Bros. or Disney?
Disney

Favorite fast food restaurant?
TK Burger

Carpet color in your bedroom?
Nude/beige

Whom did you get your last email from?
My math professor.

Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Target or Best Buy

What do you do most often when you are bored?
Go to idiotic sites that are funny and amuse me.

Most annoying thing to say to me?
One word texts...like "k".

Bedtime?
I usually go to bed before midnight these days. No set time.

Favorite TV show?
X Files

Last person you went out to dinner with?
Jen, Dayna, Andres and Jim

Been out of country?
Only to Mexico.

Believe in magic?
I do.

Ford or Chevy?
Chevy.

What are you listening to right now?
The sound of the elevator room as the oils churn. It's really annoying.

Have you ever failed a grade?
Nope.

If you have, what grade did you fail?
Not applicable.

Do you have a crush on someone?
Chastity.

Do you have a bf/gf?
Yes.

If so, what is their name?
Chastity.

How long have you been together?
Something like 6 years or so.

What are you wearing right now?
A black blouse with a long brown skirt and brown boots.

Would you have sex before marriage?
Well, yes.

Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?
Once, my geography professor.

Are you a virgin?
Wow, inappropriate. I've been with the same guy for over 6 years, what do you think?

Do you smoke?
No.

Do you drink?
Occasionally.

Are you ghetto?
G to the hetto!!! No.

Are you a player?
A player of board games, WoW, and other fun games, yes.

What are your favorite colors?
Black, red, dark purples.

What is your favorite animal?
Penguin.

Do you have any birthmarks?
Two.

Who do you talk to most on the phone?
Jimmy. I rarely use my phone for talking. I'm not a fan.

Have you ever been slapped?
Yes.

Do you get online a lot?
You could say that...haha.

Are you shy or outgoing?
A little of both, depending on the people I'm with and the atmosphere.

Do you shower?
Daily.

Do you hate school?
I hate certain courses in school, but in general I love to learn.

Do you have a social life?
Not really. I prefer it that way though.

How easily do you trust people?
Not very easily anymore.

Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?
I'm sure.

Would you ever sky dive?
I think the idea of sky diving sounds awesome, but not sure I could go through with it to be honest.

Do you like to dance?
Yes. But am I good at it? No.

Have you ever been out of state?
Yes.

Do you like to travel?
Absolutely.

Have you ever been expelled from school?
Nope.

Have you ever been suspended from school?
Nope.

Do you want to get out of your hometown?
I am out of my hometown.

Are you spoiled?
I don't think so, no.

Are you a brat?
I have my moments. Usually in a certain week in a month. Ha.

Have you ever been dumped?
Yes.

Do you like snapple?
I haven't drank Snapple in a long time! I remember thinking it was good, but a little too sugary.

Do you drink a lot of water?
Oh yes.

What toothpaste do you use?
Whatever is on sale at the time.

Do you have a cell phone?
Yup.

Do you have a curfew?
Nope.

Who do you look up to?
People who are making a change in the world.

Are you a role model?
Doubtful.

Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point?
I've been to both!

What name brand do you wear the most?
My closet is very eclectic with brands because I thrift shop most of the time. No clue.

What kind of jewelry do you wear?
Whatever matches my outfit. I always wear my claddaugh ring.

What do you want pierced?
Nothing.

Do you like taking pictures?
I do.

Do you like getting your picture taken?
Sometimes, but usually no.

Do you have a tan?
I have a little bit of one left from the river.

Do you get annoyed easily?
Not usually, no.

Have you ever started a rumor?
I'm sure I have when I was younger.

Do you have your own phone or phone line?
I do.

Do you have your own pool?
No! I wish! I love swimming, especially at night.

Do you prefer boxers or briefs?
On me? Boxers.

Do you have any siblings?
Two brothers - Jimmy and Kenny and a half sister - Kelly.

Do you get along with your parents?
Yup.

How do you vent your anger?
Usually loud music. And I slam doors when one is around. Bad habit I've been working on.

Have you ever ran away?
I think when I was little I tried? Not sure.

Have you ever been fired from a job?
I've been let go due to economy, but never fired.

Do you even have a job?
I do!

Do you daydream a lot?
Oh, yes. Especially because at my work I have huge sprawling windows in front of me.

Do you run your mouth?
Run it where? I run it to food. Omnomnom.

What do you want a tattoo of?
I'm not sure what I want another of. I have a lot of ideas, but nothing set in stone.

What do you have a tattoo of?
'imagine' written on my wrist.

Are you rude?
For the most part, no. I was raised with manners and know how to treat people with respect. But I do occasionally have my moments!

What was the last compliment you received?
My hair looks cute today.

What is your heritage?
European.

What is your lucky number?
37.

What does your hair look like right now?
It's parted in the middle with loose pigtail braids going down the sides.

Could you ever be a vegetarian?
I have been, and am sure I could be one again. I rarely eat meat as is.

Describe your looks?
I don't have a specific look. Jeans and tshirts with converse usually. Or flowy dresses and skirts.

Would you ever date someone younger than you?
I currently am.

Would you ever date someone older than you?
Yes.

When was the last time you were drunk?
Top secret information. Jager!

How many rings until you answer the phone?
However many it takes to find my phone and answer. At work, one to two rings.

Have you ever been skinny dipping?
Yes.

If yes, when was the last time?
4 years ago.

When was the last time you went on a date?
Hmm, a couple of weeks ago.

Do you look more like your mother or father?
A mixture of both.

Do you cry a lot?
At movies and books sometimes, yes.

What phrase do you use most when on the phone?
That's what she said.

Are you the romantic type?
Yes.

Have you ever been chased by cops?
Nope.

What do you like most about your body?
My curves.

What do you like least about your body?
Acne.

When did you have your first crush?
Sam Sharp in elementary school. We played kick ball and he was dreamy.

When was the last time you threw up?
This past weekend.

In the opposite sex, do you prefer blonds or brunettes?
Don't have a real preference.

Do you ever wear shirts that show your belly?
No.

What about cleavage?
Yes.

Is your best friend a virgin?
What is a virgin?

What theme does your room have?
Black and white photography? Not sure.

What size show do you wear?
6.5 - 7

What is your screen name on AIM?
kristalscatch22 - can't remember the last time I was on AIM.

How are you feeling right now?
Hungry. I need to eat lunch.

When was the last time you were at a party?
Ummm, it's been a long time.

Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?
Sure.

What is one of your bad qualities?
Too emotional.

What is one of your good qualities?
I am loyal.

Would you marry for money?
Never.

What do you drive?
2010 Nissan Sentry. Her name is Serenity <3

When was the last time you cried in school?
In school? Probably when I found out at school that a friend of mine had passed away. That was in high school, Senior year.

What kind of music do you like?
All kinds, really. Mostly rock but looking at my iPod, I've got every kind of genre.

Would you ever bungee jump?
Probably not, but maybe. There is a hike here in Southern California that you hike a long while to this bridge that you can bungee jump off. I've thought about doing it. It's with a certified trainer and people. Not just by myself of course.

What is your worst fear?
Being alone.

Would you ever join the army?
I have thought about it, but not sure.

Do you like cows?
Sure. Moo. I like their milk.

If you were to die today, what would you do?
I'd be with loved ones and do something fun.

If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it be?
Imagine.

Do you like to party?
Not particularly, no.

Moons or stars?
Stars.

Coke or pepsi?
Coke because they make Barqs Rootbeer.

Favorite scent?
Currently, Gardenia.

Favorite band?
Currently, VNV Nation - getting ready for an upcoming concert.

Would you ever dye your hair red?
I have and would do it again.

How many languages can you speak?
English and a little bit of conversational French.

What time are you finishing this?
1:13 pm

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Survey Time-A-Licious Thirty

Mom recently said "I miss surveys." So, here's a little diddy called Survey Time A Licious Thirty.


In an elevator would you tap someone on the shoulder and pretend it was not you?
Hahaha, no. But I'd really love to see someone do that.

What is your pet's name?
Timone and Luna.

Do you shower daily?
Yes. I love showers and baths.

Have you given anyone a patriotic wedgy?
I've never heard this term before. I've given Chase a wedgy, but not sure if it was patriotic or not.

How old is your mom?
I'm not sure she would like me to divulge this information on here :P

If you had the chance to stick a bunch of cherry bombs in a toilet, would you?
Hmmm, if it was for scientific purposes...like to disprove or prove a myth, absolutely. I'm all about doing things for "the cause".

Have you been run over in the last year?
Nope! Another year being run-over free.

If not, would you like to be?
No thank you.

What was your hottest teachers name?
Mr. Walsh. By far.

Do you wish you could fly?
Definitely!

Where is you favorite place to hide?
My room underneath the blankets with a good book and the kitties.

When was the last time you played tag?
At the river almost a month ago I played swimming tag with Hunter.

What is your favorite quote?
I'd rather see the world from a different angle. -Jewel

Who would you like to kiss?
Chase.

What color would you change the sky to be if you could?
Purple with blue hues.

What did you last eat?
A piece of gum.

What would you like to have as your last supper?
Sushi! All you can eat of course.

If you could ask god anything, what would it be?
Financial stability.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Stop Signs and Red Lights

Random thoughts as I was driving home from work today...

Speeding through life
Can’t seem to slow down
Taking things for granted
Need to stop
Take a look around

Let loose your senses
Feel the air rush by
Smell the breeze
Hear the world spinning
Take it all in

Close your eyes
Remember to breathe
Open your eyes
Let it all be
This moment is life

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Ten

1. I couldn't find my one and only favorite pen at work today. It wasn't until about 10 pm at home that I realized at some point in the day I had used it to hold a bun in my hair.

2. I am officially registered for a math course and creative writing course this semester. I am really excited that I was able to pick up another class, but still completely bummed that I wasn't qualified for financial aid this semester. Good bye money. Hello ramen noodles.

3. School starts in just 2 weeks. AHHH.

4. You know that bright red color Hayley from Paramore has had her hair in the past? I want my hair that color. Real bad like.

5. I'm itching for another tattoo, but I can't justify spending the money on it considering how broke I am. And how much debt I have to pay off.

6. I have a strange obsession with dark wood wicker baskets.

7. I like saying the word 'wicker'.

8. It's almost the end of summer. My favorite season is just around the corner!

9. After getting home from the gym this past weekend, I decided to try on a pair of jeans that I've not fit into for years. They fit. It was a struggle, but I won and wore them for the remainder of the day.

10. I celebrated by eating nachos. I'm bad at the losing weight game.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Nights like these

Nights like tonight...make me gloriously happy. I'm in my cozy gray v-neck tee, black yoga pants and barefoot. I've got the front door open for a light breeze. The babies are switching off cuddling in my lap, purring into the crook of my arm. A glass of wine by my side and the slight flicker of candles surrounding me. I am being carried away to a different world - taken by music. Tonight's vocal infatuation is brought to you by Priscilla Ahn.

Ahn's voice reminds me of A Fine Frenzy's singer, Aliso Sudol mixed with another of my favorite singers, Lisa Donnelly. It's quite captivating, really. My favorite I've heard thus far is called "Dream". /sigh

Quite a content evening at the Mikels' home.

Priscilla Ahn's "Dream" Lyrics:

I was a little girl alone in my little world who dreamed of a little home for me.
I played pretend between the trees, and fed my house guests bark and leaves, and laughed in my pretty bed of green.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest swing.
I had a dream.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I'm supposed to be.
The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie. I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest tree.
I had a dream.

Now I'm old and feeling gray. I don't know what's left to say about this life I'm willing to leave.
I lived it full and I lived it well, there's many tales I've lived to tell. I'm ready now, I'm ready now, I'm ready now to fly from the highest wing.

I had a dream.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Remembering

This week has been hard for different reasons, but the main one being an approaching date. Well, a couple of approaching dates to be quite honest.

This coming up week will be the one year mark of James' passing. I miss him. A lot. I still talk with a few of his friends I met at his services - all great people and I feel honored to have them in my life now. Last week I messaged Mike and Justin, two close friends of James, to see if they would be interested in going to James' site this coming up Saturday the 18th. They both said yes, and I've also extended that invitation to other friends and family. We now have a small group of loved ones set for the memorial. I know it will be hard, but am happy to have such caring people to go with who remember James in such high respects as I do.


The other date...the one that gets me every year...is father's day. I miss my dad. It's weird-I always thought that the years would pass and I would miss him less, but it seems as though the opposite is happening. I am missing him more and hating that he is gone. I envy those that have their dads still - and I know that may sound bad. But I see so many who have these great father figures in their life, and take them for granted and I want to tell them just how lucky they are to have them. But I know human nature, and how we take for granted things that we shouldn't.

"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal."

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Moving

A couple months ago my mom bought me a domain. Jealous? No? Okay, fine. Anyways...getting back on track. I now have a website for random junk I see around the internet. I also keep my Photo of the Day and Song of the Day stuff on there instead of bombarding Facebook with my boring life. If you are feeling extra procrastinatious (ya, I just invented that word), you can check it out here:
http://kristalsands.com
It's a work in progress. I am attempting to learn coding and all that jazz to make it look like I know what I'm doing. But don't let it fool you. Because I don't. And because I am easily distrac----huh?

In other news...
I am FINALLY done with this semester. It seemed extra long and excruciating. I HATE math. With a burning raging passion that makes me want to go throw rocks and stuff. However, I managed to get straight As this semester and make Dean's List. Not that it matters since I can't get financial aid any more. The California school systems have gone to complete and utter shit. I really don't know why I stay in the state. I guess out of comfort and the fear of failing somewhere else? Bah.
I still have cats living on my patio. And it's becoming a nuisance. I think I talked my landlord into lowering my rent $50 or so for the month since I've not slept a whole night through. I just have the momma, dad and two kittens left. I told him that if he doesn't get them by this weekend that I'll be tearing my fence down. And I'm not kidding. I have some DIY projects I'd like to work on and can't without my patio since some of it includes planting and building junk. Cross fingers!
So that's my life in a nutshell right now.
You may now proceed with your life. I know you were all dying for an update. HA

Thursday, April 28, 2011

ABC

Age: 25
Bed size: Queen
Chore you hate: Cleaning the litter box. It's stinky.
Dogs: Are great. I'd love to have a golden retriever one day if I ever have a house and the room for one.
Essential start to your day: Water. I'm always extremely parched when I wake up.
Favorite color: Teals and aquamarine colors lately. This varies depending on season and mood.
Gold or silver: Silver.
Height: 5'5".
Instruments i play (or have played): I used to play the trumpet. And would love to start again if I had a good trumpet. And play around on the guitar.
Job title: Receptionist/Administrative Assistant
Kids: Do my cats count? I think they do. Their names are Timone and Luna.
Live: On Earth. In California.
Mom's name: Mary. Not the one who had a little lamb. Or the virgin. Or Poppins.
Nickname: Kris (from Kate) and Krissy (from Ren.
Overnight hospital stay: Only to visit, never for me.
Pet peeve: People who don't use their turn signals and people who are late.
Quote from a movie: "Ah, well, sir, I feel like a, like a slice of butter... melting on top of a big-ol' pile of flapjacks... yeah." Pineapple Express
Right or left handed: Right handed.
Siblings: Two older brothers - Jimmy and Kenny and a younger half sister, Kelly.
Time you wake up: Around 6 on week days and 8 on weekends.
Underwear: Yes. I wear those.
Vegetables you dislike: I'm not a big fan of squash.
What makes you run late: Traffic. It's awful.
X-rays you've had done: Teeth, lungs, boobs, ankle, wrist, fingers.
Yummy food you make: Lately it's been veggies, ramen noodles, and pastas. Jealous?
Zoo animal: Penguins. Penguins. Penguins. Penguins. I also like any of the kitties. I love their paws.

Monday, April 25, 2011

Another day in the life of...

Wow. What a Monday already. So far:

The garage I just got on Saturday locked my car in it this morning. Still not sure if it was the garage itself, or the opener. I finally managed to pry the danged thing open, but couldn't get it closed afterward. I then had to call emergency maintenance, since I didn't want to leave it open with a neighbor's car still in its spot.

Fast forward to me at work...

I'm half an hour late and have missed my Monday Morning Meeting at the company. I start to sort the mail to pass out and a spider *insert disgusting shiver here* crawled out from between some pieces of mail and onto my hand. I may have let out a screech. Or a scream. Or a blood curdling psycho killer guttural AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Then, I smacked it with my hand and it died and guts went places I'd rather not discuss. I then proceeded to scrub my hands for 5 minutes until they were red and raw.

Fast forward to me back at my desk...

I pass out the mail. Get my coffee on, because lord knows I need it after the morning thus far. I then sit down at my desk and grab my purse to get my chap-stick. And, well, enter another scream here. ANOTHER danged spider. This one IN my person. Repeat the same steps as before listed ^up^ ^there^.

It's only 8:55 folks. Let's see what else will happen on this fine Monday.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Awe Inspiring

http://vimeo.com/22439234

This video is so breathtaking and makes me really appreciate the beauty of the world we live in. He also has more linked on the side that are just as inspiring.

It's funny how I view life. I don't so much see the beauty of the people surrounding me, though I do always try to see the good. But as a whole, we mess up the beauty that surrounds us with such pettiness.
I love videos like this, and being surrounded by nature in this sense because everything else in life falls away. All that matters is in that moment. The silence. The painfully beautiful world that we live in, that we take for granted and destroy.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Dream

I had a scary dream last night...one of those that felt real.

I woke up to the sounds of explosions. Repetitive booming noises in the distance. I was in bed with Chase in a hotel lobby with a large glass window looming to the side of us. There was a pool in front of the glass window, where I could see two silhouettes swimming in circles.

Around us in the lobby were other people on beds sleeping. I was the only one awake.

Beyond the pool in the distance, I could see smoke clouds billowing up. It was dawn, but the sky was filled with a yellowish orange hue making it almost impossible to pinpoint the time.

Then, I saw what was causing the scene. Fire balls were coming from something flying above, but the thick smoke masked what was behind the attack.

I turned to Chase to wake him up, but all of a sudden everyone around me was awake. He had his arm around me and I asked him what was going on. He said that we had made them very angry. I didn't understand what he meant by that, but just then, the attacks got closer. A ball of fire hit the two figures in the pool. But they kept swimming, seemingly uninjured.

All around me, people were staring, but no noise. The sounds of the explosions were getting closer as were the smoke clouds.

It went on like this, but we never did get hit.

I've not had a dream like this in a long time.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Blood Work Results

Well folks, I got the results from my blood work - super fast might I add!
It looks as though my red blood cells are pretty low, which surprises me since I already take iron supplements. But, the doctor also noted that this is probably the reason I am getting so many more tachycardia attacks. The lack of red blood cells to carry oxygen to my heart is making it irregular.
Another side affect is depression, fatigue...yadda yadda.
I have another doctor's appointment set up for Wednesday of this week. The doctor wants to do some tests on my heart. Hook me up while on a treadmill to see what happens.
Wee fun?
:(

Retaliation

I never wanted to be that person. The person that, when hurt by a loved one, would hurt them back in retaliation. But here I am in a position where I have done just that. It makes me feel awful. And sick to my stomach.
To every story between two people, there are two sides. And each side deserves a fair say and a just way of handling it.
I wish I could take back things that I've said. I don't regret much, but this much I do.
Some may have noticed that I deactivated my Facebook. I did this because I was utilizing it in the wrong way. I'll be back, but for now...let's just say I'm on hiatus.
"I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and I understand."

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Art

An attempt at art. Though it's not much, it's a step up from my stick figures. And I like it.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Thursday

This morning I...
Pressed snooze about two dozen times before getting out of bed.
Turned the sink on for the meowing cats to get their water fiend on.
Realized how badly I need to do laundry.
Drove to work listening to the AM station covering the newest earthquake in Japan.
Organized more supplies, cabinets and desk areas at work.
Had a coughing fit that had me in tears.
Ate a handful of cough drops.
Found chocolate covered strawberries left over from last night's event at work and called the other two women at the company for an indulging fest in the kitchen for a quick minute.
Got frustrated at Course Compass for the second day in a row that I haven't been able to access my homework assignments.
Saw the people protesting outside of Planned Parenthood once again - now with more graphic posters in hand.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Cupcake Epidemic of 2011

Last week I baked cupcakes. A LOT of cupcakes. On a lot of different days. In a lot of different ways. Chocolate cupcakes. Devil's food cupcakes. Best chocolate cake EVER cupcakes. Strawberry cupcakes. Cappuccino cupcakes. Black bottom cream cheese cupcakes. Oh, how do I count the ways? And that doesn't even include the massive amounts of frosting that were whipped, blended and spread.
Only half of this list were created from scratch - but I have come to the conclusion that homemade frosting is definitely worth the effort for the end result. Scrumdidliumptious!
Yesterday I finally got my kitchen back in order. It was time...my poor plates were buried and couldn't breath. The silverware were fending for their lives falling into the disposal. I felt bad and a bit sickened by the whole ordeal. I'm sorry and I promise to treat you better, oh bake ware of mine.
But let me just say this - I LOVE to bake. A lot of my coworkers said that my cupcakes were the best they had ever had. /Pats myself on the back. Hopefully I can add some more bake ware to my collection. I don't even have a cookie sheet at this point...HA! In due time though!

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Do you...

Ever feel like no matter how much you give, it's never enough?
Ever feel like there has to be more to life than this?
Ever feel like the path you chose was the wrong one somehow?

I wish I could find my happiness.

Friday, March 11, 2011

A Day In The Life Of...

Here are just a few shots from today:

I got this awesome nail polish at the new 99 cent store that opened by my work.

Timone was pretty devastated last night when the suitcase of doom was pulled out. He began to pace in front of it meowing. Poor guy.

I came home to find this gem of a poster hanging with some tape. I love the placement. It really adds that pop of color to my room! Oh, Chase. He cracks me up.


Where do I begin? AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! That about sums it up. It smells amazing. I can't stop sniffing my hair! And for a pretty decent price too. Oh, and bonus - paraben free!


I love watching the shadows dance across the shades in the lobby at work.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Warning! Contents Under Pressure

Are most of your friends in your life new or old?
Mostly older with a few newer mixed in from work.


Do you eat raw cookie dough?
Oh, yes. It's a problem I have.


How do you like your eggs?
I'm not particularly picky about them, but usually over easy.


Creamy or crunchy peanut butter?
I love both. My current favorite is Skippy Natural Creamy.


Instant or home-made mashed potatoes?
Homemade! No question about that. Instant taste like paper.


Can you handle the truth?
I'd rather handle the truth than be lied to.


What is the compliment you get from most people?
Great eyelashes.


If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself?
No doubt about it. I'm super awesome.


Is anyone on your bad side right now?
No. I like to confront people if I am feeling out of sorts with them so that it is a non issue.


What’s the best drinking game?
I like King's Cup and also ones where you watch a movie and whenever a certain word is said, you have to drink.


Do you like your music loud or soft?
Loud. I love being carried away in the sound.


Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them?
I don't buy them like that, but some do from aging.


When was the last time you fell over or ran into something?
Today. This is common for me. The better question would be "When was the last time you didn't fall or run into something?"


What’s the first movie that gave you nightmares?
Nightmare on Elm's Street


If you could sleep with one famous person, who would it be?
Tyler Blackburn.


Have you ever sung in front of the mirror?
This happens on a day to day basis. Mostly when I'm getting ready in the morning and listening to music.


Do you talk a lot?
It depends on who I'm with. Usually I observe and listen.


Do you make up your own words?
They are called Kristalisms. I have a very imaginative mind!



What is something you say a lot?
Seriously? That is crazy! Cute! Awesome! And I laugh a lot.


What was the last movie you saw in theaters?
The Adjustment Bureau.


Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
I like the comfort of having someone there with me.


Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with?
No.


Do you stay friends with your ex's?
I am friends with one of them, yes.


What attracted you to your most recent ex?
I started being attracted to him when I was 11...and I was attracted to his mystery and his sense of humor.


When was your last kiss?
Yesterday.


Are you/have you been in love?
Of course.


Would you wear a boyfriend/girlfriends clothes?
Yes. It's comforting in my opinion.


What do you find romantic?
The little things.


Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or just diving in?
Knowing someone before hand. Start as friends and build up from there.


Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out?
Who cares about socially acceptable! I have asked a guy out.


Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever?
I do. I believe that if you are with someone you love, you wouldn't hurt them by cheating.


The one thing I love about the opposite sex is:
Their hands.


What is the most difficult thing for you to do?
Stay motivated.


What's the best sound in the world?
Ocean waves crashing.


Is education important?
I believe to a certain point it is. Graduating from high school is a must, but every one is different and after that, it's hard to say if a college education is worth it.


Rather live in the country or in a city?
Country. I don't like the hustle and bustle of city life.


Favorite song you can listen to over and over?
Currently it's Ludovico Einaudi - A Fuoco.


Do you believe punishment really makes a person better?
Non physical punishment, yes. Time out for instance.


Should people that hurt animals have the same done to them?
I am not an eye for an eye type of person. But I believe that those who hurt animals in whatever manner, whether for personal joy or even animal testing, will have karma to face.


Want to say anything to anybody?
No, I do enough of that.


Ever been to a party that cops busted?
Yes.


You addicted to anything?
Many things! Luckily, none of which are illegal.


How much does it cost for you to fill up your gas tank?
Oh, don't remind me! Gas is up to $4.10. Half a tank yesterday was almost $40!


Ever ran over an animal?
No.


Favorite type of movie to watch?
All! Depends on my mood.


Ever seen a weird bug and you didn't know what it was?
Yes. I had never seen a house centipede until one crawled out of my tea kettle. It was absolutely disgusting. Google it. Do it.


What do you order at McDonald's?
I don't ever choose to go to McDonald's. When I go because someone else wants to, usually a kid's meal or fruit parfait.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

The ABCs of Kristal

Adorkable. It's my self-proclaimed nickname. And I fully believe that I am. Do you know me?
Believer. A believer in love. In hope. In many areas of life.
Creative. I have a lot of ideas-most of which I don't act on, but they are there.
Diligent. I get stuff done when it needs to be done. I do so in a very organized manner.
Entertaining. Not for anyone else so much, but for me. I am great at entertaining myself. I could laugh at my antics for days. Months. Years. And then some.
Frisky. My cats and I relate a lot because of this. I like to play. Lots. And play some more. I think I wear them out.
Grateful. For all that I have in life.
Hungry. I love food. It's my favorite. I want it all the time. My inner fat girl is slowly escaping!
Indecisive. Ask me what I want for lunch. Or dinner. Or what to do. I'd rather just go with the flow most of the time than make the decisions.
Jittery. I'm constantly tapping my fingers, bouncing my feet, biting on my lip, doing little dances...It's a problem.
Kooky. You know me, right? Nuff said.
Loyal. I am very loyal to the ones I love. I'm like man's best friend never leaving their side. Like Lassie continuously saving Timmy from the well.
Mischievous. I like to scheme. Most of the time, I don't follow through with my outlandish ideas...but sometimes...I just can't help myself.
Nerd. Not like the candy. Like...I wear glasses, game, do puzzles for fun, read for fun...that sorta thing.
OCD. I mostly laugh it off, but it exists. And it is hard to deal with sometimes.
People-watcher. Oh, I could do this for a whole day. Observe everyone around me. It's pretty fascinating stuff.
Quirky. For instance: When I'm walking, I almost always count my steps. And will play little games with myself. If I can get to that light pole in this many steps, then I will be married in the next year. Stuff like that.
Reclusive. I love being at home in my comfort zone. I'm not one for going out to bars and partying.
Swanky. I really like this word. And wanted to use it. So that's all for that.
Thoughtful. It's fun doing things out of the blue for people. It makes my heart swell.
Uterus. I have one. But am not one. I just couldn't think of anything.
Vagina. Again, I have one. But am not one.
Whimsy. I sometimes make blanket and sheet forts in my living room and do homework underneath.
Xylophonist. When I was little I played the xylophone at school. I was the best there was. People from all across the countries came to see me play. *Note-this may be an over exaggeration of true events.
Youthful. I am only a quarter of a century old, after all.
Zealous. Mostly about interior decoration. And some other stuff. But I won't go into that.

Sixth Sense

Ever since I was younger I have had a sixth sense that has kicked in from time to time. Odd feelings of unknown presences around me, dreams predicting occurrences in my life and a very rare psychic ability that has now possibly saved me twice.
The first time it has saved me was when I was in my teens dating Jeff. We were on the freeway, he driving his Accord. I remember being extremely tired and dozed off. After what felt like a couple of seconds, a vision came to me that startled me awake. I had seen a huge semi truck swerve into our lane crashing into us. My heart was beating. I was shaking. Upon gaining composure, I looked up to see a semi truck much like the one I had just seen in my "dream". I asked Jeff to please change lanes and he did so without question. Not a second later, that semi truck swerved into the lane we had previously been in. I could feel the air in the car stiffen.
Today, something similar happened and I haven't been able to slow my heart since. (Tachycardia is NOT helping this situation) I was heading back to work from my lunch break this afternoon when it hit me. I was driving on the freeway when I got a dull headache. A truck had just merged in front of me - in the back a lawn mower. All of a sudden I got a huge wave of fear and blinked. In the blink I had a vision of said lawn mower flying out of the truck and into my window. I quickly changed lanes and pulled to the shoulder with my hazards on. A few seconds later, I saw the truck slam on his brakes from traffic coming to a stop. The lawn mower flew out of the back of his truck. Luckily no one was behind him.
What does it even mean?!

Question


Ultimately, I want to dedicate my blog to one thing specifically so that I can have more focus and motivation to keep it updated. However, what this one thing is...I haven't a clue.
I was talking to a friend of mine the other day and he suggested that I have a website with multiple tabs instead with different areas I'd like to explore. My main interests: cooking, designing, gaming, ramblings and photography.
To clarify, I am in no way a professional in any of the above areas. Well, maybe a professional rambler...I could ramble your ear off, but I digress.
I'm not sure what I'll end up doing. But here's a pretty picture I took yesterday of my newest puzzle and I really like it <3

Monday, February 28, 2011

Smile

Because I can think of so many things that keep me stressed out, I will jot down a few items that keep my smiling as of late.

1. The kitties. Now, we'll forget that Luna woke momma up at 5 am this morning with the sound of breaking glass from my favorite candle. These two cats really do complete me. I love their cuddles and company.

2. Chase. The love of my life. Yes, things are complicated between us. But at the end of the day he is still my best friend and someone I can count on.

3. Photography. This past weekend Chase and I played with his new Rebel. It was a lot of fun. We staged some photo shoots of candles in my apartment.

4. Food. I have been trying to cook every meal as opposed to eating out...and I've got to say, I do feel really great about it. I'm by no means a "fancy cook". I keep it simple but use a lot of spices and black pepper. Black pepper is a must.

5. Health. I am finally over the pneumonia! Hallelujah! I am still more tired than normal, but the doctor assured me that this was normal.

6. Core Secrets. I used to do these work out videos a couple of years back and had forgotten about them. But moving has a way of bringing things to your attention and I'm back at it. They are shorter videos that focus on using your core muscles for each exercise done. It's great. I am sore.

7. School. It's hard. I find it hard to motivate myself to keep going. But at the end of every week that I have accomplished, I feel good. I don't know what I'm working toward at this point. But I am learning in the process...

8. Puzzles. I love them. It's an old hobby of mine that is making a comeback. Now, if only libraries rented them out!

9. DIY. Yes, that's right. I like to do it myself. Little projects around the house that is. It's fun having my own place to decorate and make home.

10. Dark chocolate peanut butter cups. Nuff said.

Monday, February 21, 2011

One Year Later

I posted this survey one year ago. One year later...

1. Name your favorite:

* Color – Tiffany Box Blue
* Scent – My current favorite is gardenia.
* Season – Autumn
* Book – White Oleander by Janet Fitch
* Movie: Easy A
* Song: Ludovico Einaudi - A Fuocu (beautiful song)
* T.V. show: Roswell
* Beverage: Water
* Main course in a meal: Sushi

2. Have you learned anything new lately?

Today: I'm back in school learning a lot. I've learned more about biological anthropology, history of theatre, algebra, and am also teaching myself sign language slowly.

Last Year: I have been watching online classes on Excel trying to master it. There are so many features that make the work I’ve been doing so much easier and more efficient.

3. Pretend it’s a cool fall evening. What’s on your agenda for tonight?

Today: Open the windows for a nice fall breeze to flow into my apartment, make some hot cocoa, work on a puzzle and watch a movie.

Last Year: Usually, I cuddle up with the kitties on the reclining chair and read a book.

4. Where would you like to visit someday?

Today: Fiji, Europe, Jamaica, Ireland, Germany...

Last Year: Fiji! It looks beautiful; I would love to see the lush landscapes and enjoy the tropics.

5. Where do you live, and why do you like it?

Today: I live in a quaint little apartment in Orange, CA. I like it because it's mine and it's home. The bathroom is very vintage looking and huge. The kitchen has wooden counter tops that are fun. And there are some really unique characteristics throughout the apartment that I just love.

Last Year: I live in Santa Ana, CA and while I don’t necessarily like the city I live in, I love my apartment. It’s home and I always feel warm and cozy with the kitties and Chase.

6. Name something that has moved you lately.

Today: I read a news article today about a woman who was walking with her young son. As they were waiting for a cross walk, the mother saw a dog in the middle of oncoming traffic. She went to rescue it and was killed by a driver who ran a red light. Her son witnessed the whole thing. So tragic.

Last Year: I watched this video recently about a motivational speaker who has no arms or legs – Nick Vujicic – and it was truly inspirational. We should never take what we have for granted.

7. What do you do with your time, mostly?

Today: I work full time. Once home, I work on homework and reading for classes. Time not spent doing these two things have recently been working on puzzles, watching Roswell, reading, decorating, napping and playing with the kitties.

Last Year: The majority of my time is spent working, but when I’m not working I am playing WoW, reading, or out with friends. Recently, my evenings have been filled with the show True Blood. I am hooked!

8. What are your past-times and hobbies and interests?

Today: I enjoy reading, putting together puzzles, putting together model cars, WoW (though I gave my account to a friend for a while so it doesn't distract me from school), decorating, writing and watching movies.

Last Year: WoW, designing, daydreaming, reading, writing, watching movies or television, yoga or pilates, going to the beach, and watching Hunter.

9. If you had 50 dollars and had everything you needed, how would you spend that money?

Today: All you can eat sushi dinner and a movie.

Last Year: I would take Chase and I out on a date.

10. You are hosting a party with a few close friends. What would you serve?

Today: Wine, cheese, crackers, fruit and chocolate.

Last Year: Oh, that’s such a hard question! I love BBQs, so I would opt to do a lot of meats and vegetables grilled. Then have sweet tea and fresh lemonade.

11. What kind of conversations do you love?

Today: Ones that make me think. Ones that are completely off the wall and non-sequittor.

Last Year: I love random conversations. Ones that come out of nowhere but end up in fits of laughter.

12. Name a favorite teenage memory.

Today: I met Jessica Belanger when I was in middle school. She and I both had long hair, glasses, brown eyes, and the same body shape and height. People began to sing the "Sister, Sister" song whenever they saw us. We soon began to convince everyone that we were cousins - even teachers. It was a riot. We decided to go to Disneyland for fun one day and met at the park...only to find that we were wearing the exact same outfit. Blue jeans, gray sweatshirts and Converse. Totally unintentional, but hilarious nonetheless. I have pictures of us from that day outside the park in a silly pose and another of us with Tarzan.

Last Year: When I was in high school, my friends and I invented this game called “Tag”. My friends had all graduated college and had cars, so one night out of bored as we were sitting outside of Natales (our coffee shop hangout) we thought up a game of tag using cars. We used a map to set the boundaries that we had to stay in while driving. Each car had two people in it…the driver and the navigator (which was always me as I didn’t drive). We would then all start in the same spot and give a one minute to start to each car for them to go out. The goal was to get 2 feet from one of the cars and flash your headlights twice. Tag, they’re it. It was soooo much fun.

13. Name a favorite childhood memory.

Today: Pretending to be Men In Black with my cousin, Katie. We would get so into it; Wear all black clothes, black sunglasses and walk around with our hands as guns singing and slinking along walls.

Last Year: Any childhood memory at Grandma and Grandpa’s Blue house.

14. Name a favorite memory about someone in your family.

Today: When my cousin Rachel was younger, she was a riot. She was so full of energy and life. She was an avid horse fan...collecting anything and everything horse related. I remember she used to set up little courses for her to run around in the living room and would pretend to be a horse.

Last Year: Fishing with dad and Sam.

15. What are you looking forward to?

Today: I am looking forward to...a weekend of nothing coming up. To one of my courses at school being close to finished. To a Vegas trip in March for a friend's bachelorette party. To some lights that my cousin Kate got for me as a housewarming present to arrive. To family visiting later this year.

Last Year: Summer trips to the river and Idyllwild, seeing family for the holidays, Martha and Jeff’s visit to CA in October…lots of stuff!

16. Have you acquired anything interesting lately?

Today: I have acquired an outdoor cat of sorts. The apartment I moved into has a cat that is always on my back patio. I feel so bad for the poor thing. It seems like it either used to live at my apartment and the owners left it, or it just likes it for the boxes I have set up from my unpacking.

Last Year: My Aunt Marcie made me the most awesome blanket ever! It’s my new cuddling blanket when I can pull it away from Timone.

17. Where do you picture yourself 10 years from now? (Favorite Dad question!)

Today: I really hate this question. At this point, I can honestly say I have no idea.

Last Year: I have a really hard time answering these types of questions, because I honestly don’t know. I would like to have graduated from college, or at least have some kind of degree. Maybe married with a kid…

18. What is your view of heaven?

Always: I think it’s what you want it to be. What you dream of to be your perfect place and pure happiness and serenity…that’s heaven in my eyes

19. How do you like your chicken?

Always: Grilled or lightly seasoned and pan cooked with some EVOO.

20. What one thing would you change about yourself?

Always: The way I view myself. My insecurity.

21. Are you afraid to die?

Always: No. It's a part of the human cycle.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Losing Home

Home is not a place
It is not solid
Nor visible
It lies in my heart

Home is the presence
Of the one I love
It is not tangible
Blind to outsiders

My home keeps me grounded
Voids are filled
Emotions are confined
I am complete

My home is no longer
And I am a drifter
Lost in turmoil
Searching

Monday, January 24, 2011

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Jar of Hearts
By Christina Perri

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And learn to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

Monday, January 10, 2011

Surreal

I got a new car! But wait, let me start at the beginning.
It all started yesterday. I wanted to run some errands and get some groceries at Trader Joes to last me the upcoming week. I got in my car and started to drive, but my car had other plans. At about 10 mph, it felt as though I was stuck in 1st gear and I was already at 40 rpms. I tried going faster to see if Ty (my car) would "shift" so to speak, but in just 5 mph my car jumped to 60 rpms. I got really scared at the sounds it was making. In the past as I'd drive, sometimes my car would make jerky motions as if I was driving a stick shift and switching gears, but I attributed it to my cars funkiness. I was wrong. I just barely made it around the neighborhood to park. I tried it again later in the evening, but it was still acting up. The transmission fluid had recently been filled along with my oil change, so I knew it wasn't that. And no leaks were apparent.
I went inside to Google my issues and found multiple people on VW forums siting the same experiences - all whose transmissions blew. This car...it just doesn't like to work. I started crying, knowing that I couldn't afford to fix yet another issue with Ty. I was at a loss.
Shandra and her parents had just left for the market when all of this had happened. When they got home, her dad, Larry, told me he would go talk to his neighbor friend, Gary who was a shop manager for a dealership. A couple minutes later he came back and told me to go over and talk to Gary with him. He was so helpful. Got me on the line with someone at the dealership and they input my information into the system and ran a credit check. Gary then asked if I could go with him to work this morning to see if we could find a car I could afford. I was hesitant because of money issues. But at the very least he said he could get me a rental car free for a couple of days. I agreed and he picked me up early this a.m.
We arrived at the dealership and I tested a bunch of different cars, but ended up going with a 2010 Nissan Sentra. I love it <3 It's much roomier than my Jetta and even has a trunk that opens! Neat!